I love the beauty that surrounds me when I am at the rivers side. My peace, my sanity, my sanctuary. All my loneliness simply disappears, all my troubles and my worries are at rest. My mind becomes free of everything that is negative in my life when at the rivers side. Pure beauty.

The cool calm current washes everything away, even without touching it. I want to be free, like the river. You can contaminate me, poison me but you would never be able to kill my spirit. A river can be no more but its presence will always be there, its soul will be imbeded there.

I keep trying to make things better; but nothing seems to change. Otherwise it's for the worst. I am tired of smiling and keep my head up. I am crashing slowly, but I will hit the ground hard.

If things went as planned, do you think we'd be happier? Would we truely be content with our lives?
I used to think that I'd be happier, but now I am not sure. ..

Somethings going to change my world, and I hope it goes off with a big bang.